It's been a month...

...and it feels like forever and an instant at the same exact time.

It has, however, been a while since I last posted. I've turned twenty since then! I've also rejoined my bellydance troupe, and had my first performance since giving birth!

I'm also, at this moment, terribly sick. As is my son. Last week we took him to the emergency room because his cough hadn't gone away (though his stuffy nose had). They did a chest x-ray and, fortunately, they didn't find pneumonia. He had a viral chest infection and it would be gone in about a week. A week later, we all feel crummy, and he's even worse than before. He's refusing to eat and he cries the majority of the time he's awake. His diaper output is a mere percentage of what it normally is.

I need sleep because my throat is sore like I'm sure his is, but he only sleeps maybe an hour at a time. My whole body aches. I feel sluggish and exhausted. I haven't had much to eat but I'm not particularly hungry. Actually, now that I mention it, my stomach is quite empty.

Now comes the decision of the night - do I eat a super-late night meal? Or do I wait another 12 hours for lunchtime?
This isn't a major decision right now. I'm sick and I have a sick son to care for so I should eat to keep up my energy. I should also put in my caloric intake for the past 24 hours because I haven't done that yet.

Okay done. I did really bad yesterday because I still haven't found the willpower to resist a Mountain Dew or some Taco Bell. I'm 500 calories under for today. (That is, unless acetomenophin has calories!)

The old, broken scale in the bathroom says I weigh 190 now (down three pounds!) and the lowest I've been on Wii Fit is 183 with a BMI of slightly more than 26 (which is considered overweight).

If I'm going to lose the weight I want to lose and change my lifestyle I'm going to need to be a little better about the choices I make. This week, I'll look at triggers and ways to deal with them or avoid them altogether.

Until next time.