Don't we all wish for quick fixes???

I know it took more than a year for me to gain this weight... and another year to maintain what I gained.

I know it'll take real dedication and a lot of time to get back to where I want to be, but instead of getting to work, getting off my butt, moving more, choosing better meals, keeping track of calories and making sure I end each day in a deficit, I fantasize about there being a way to just magically take care of it.

Like pills, and creams, and medical procedures, two hours of cardio and nothing but carrot sticks and diet pepsi for three weeks.

Get to my goal weight fast and go back to maintenance only. No more worries, just satisfaction.

Yeah, I wish.

I'll be jumping back into C25K on Monday, week 5 day 1 again on Monday (I feel I need one more day to master it!), day 2 on Wednesday and (EEK!) day 3 on Friday.

I have, for the past three or four weeks, been avoiding the Mini-Mart on the way to the studio, which cuts out atleast four sodas per week.

But I have been drinking tea nearly everyday and I put so much sugar in it I don't even want to think of the calorie count!

No wonder the scale at the studio has me at 190. :(

I should see if Korin will let me check my weight on her Wii Fit. It's been atleast two months since I weighed myself over there... At the same time, however, do I really want to know exactly what kind of damage I've done to myself?

When I think of losing the weight, I get excited and jumpy. I think of fitting back into my old jeans, running more easily due to less body mass, looking better in pictures, having more energy to chase my 14 month old around...etc.

But I need something I will stick to. Winter is fast approaching so I'd like to complete C25K before major rain, hail and sleet hit daily. I have a treadmill available to use but I'm wary about using it... I like doing strength exercises but have trouble commiting myself to doing them regularly. I'd love to join a gym, but don't want the financial burden right now, nor am I sure I would use it enough for the money to not go to waste.

I know I'm held back a lot due to caring for Jamison. He's an energy drainer, he now only takes one nap per day and it's getting colder out so that means less time running around outside. I could continue to travel to the studio even on days I don't have to in order to get specific workouts in but I don't know.

Ugh. A quick fix would be SO nice! Three wishes from a magical genie, a prayer circle to shrink my ass, eat all I want, lay around the house and still lose thirty pounds. POOF! Size 9 again!

:( Wishful thinking.